Two and a half years ago, my family made a sudden move from PA back down to NC: we went from not even considering moving to being packed up and gone in less than a month.
We had to move, as our house was poisoning one of my sons and we had to move so he could get better and before the other kids could get hurt.
Our plan was to move close to where we had previously lived in NC… but a few towns over.
And that’s what we did for the first six months.
Then we ended up back in the town where we used to live, pre-kids, pre-move to PA.
A place I really hadn’t wanted to go back to.
I had my friends who were teachers when we lived here before, but I never found my place after we had kids.
Not belonging with the military wives or the locals who’d all known each other forever, I never felt like I fit.
I just kept saying that it wasn’t a big deal, that we’d move again anyway, so I didn’t really need to worry about feeling like this is home.
But now my kids are in elementary school. We finally have my middle son in a school where there’s an amazing team to help him and he can have all the same teachers next year.
And this area is convenient for Hubs’ job but whatever. He also travels a ton, so I feel like I have a case for us not living super close to his office.
So suddenly, looking at houses in other towns doesn’t seem realistic: not for at least another year and maybe even longer since change doesn’t seem to be something that is all that good for our child with special needs. Especially not after finding a school staff that cares so much about helping him.
We can look in this same area, where my kids would still go to this same school, sure. But, not outside of this neighborhood.
But it’s time for me to start thinking differently.
To realize that this is my home.
And to find a way to find my place here.
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