I used to be afraid to try certain things.
Because I liked to stay in my safe little bubble where I could succeed at everything that I tried. I like to win, people.
Get first place, do a fabulous job, be seen as a success.
And so, sometimes that would cause me to turn down some opportunities. Or make me not try something because I was convinced I would most likely fail.
Somewhere along the line I stopped caring.
Realized I was missing out. That I don’t HAVE to be the best at something- I can just be a PART of it. That the only one who cares is me.
Silly things: like how I used to feel self-conscious about playing a game like softball with friends because I’m horrible at it. A total klutz. Or not playing cards because I never get them. But, really, who cares? It’s just fun. And sometimes I’m surprised by not being the worst one there.
Important things: like a job that I wanted but thought there were others more qualified who would get picked over me. But, it’s still worth a shot.
The trying doesn’t really cost me anything. I used to think it did.
It was a blow to my self-esteem if I didn’t do well, didn’t get the job, didn’t win. If someone sees that I tried something and failed. They’ll see me as a failure.
But, really, the opposite has been true.
With every new experience I have tried- even those I’ve failed SPECTACUARLY at- I’ve grown MORE confident.
Because I always learn something. I grow as a person. I gain experience to do better next time. Or I learn that something really isn’t for me- and then I’m able to shift my focus instead of always wondering “what if.”
I learn that I’m capable of trying all sorts of crazy things and having fun while trying. And that just makes me more willing to say YES or WHY NOT? when an opportunity presents itself.
And though, yes, I fail at some, there are some that I never would have tried if I hadn’t adopted his attitude…where I succeed.
****I wrote all of the above this weekend, inspired by my attempt at getting an online job last week…that I was certain that I had FAILED SPECTACUARLY at. I saved this post in draft, thinking I’d finish it by telling you about my rejection email when it came and tell you how I’m glad I tried but that I was perfectly okay with not getting it.
Instead, the email said the exact opposite. And I’m starting something new today. I’ll tell you more about it soon- I need to figure out what the hell I’m doing first.
But, even with this, there is always the chance that I will flop, too. But, luckily, I now have the attitude that it’s okay to try something and not be the best.
How do you feel when you are faced with trying something new?