I’m convinced most people have their “thing.” Something they believe that maybe doesn’t make much sense to the rest of us, but it’s perfectly logical to that person.
Mine is my insistence that I can suffer through pain.
That a nap or a heating pad or time will make it go away and I don’t need any sort of pain meds.
You could maybe easily explain it away because there is a history of addiction in my family. To prescription pain medication.
So, naturally, the addict’s daughter stays away from pain medication.
But here’s where my thinking probably only makes sense to me: I have no problem taking meds for PMS(I pop Pamprin non-stop during that time of the month).
And I don’t have a problem having occasional drinks.
But if I have a headache or a backache- nope, not taking anything.
To my way of thinking, I can drink because I don’t have this compulsion to drink- I don’t ever have a drink thinking I need it (despite what I might joke about on twitter after a hard day). I just drink when I want to. I’ve written about this before, figuring out how many drinks is too many. But the bottom line is that it feels like a choice to have a drink: it’s something I want, not something I need.
On the other hand, I’ll take something for my PMS because I feel like I need it to be able to function, thanks to the killer cramps that will literally make me double over in pain. So, I’m only taking that because of an absolute need. And one that is specific to that time of the month.
But a headache or other pain- since I don’t really need the meds, wanting them would make me worry. Like, am I making up the pain to try to fool myself into taking the pills- and will that become a habit I can’t break, one that could affect my kids.
So wanting alcohol but not needing it means nothing to worry about in my mind.
But wanting a pain pill when the need isn’t one hundred percent needed would be a cause for concern.
I know, it’s rather convoluted thinking.
I overanalyze sometimes.
But I feel comfortable with where I’ve drawn my lines, even if the thought behind it only makes sense to me.
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