Maybe there’s some truth to the middle child being the most challenging, the most spirited(spoken like a middle child, right?)
While I’ve learned so much from my kids, it’s my middle son whose journey has been the most like a crazy roller coaster (my mother would say this is karmic retribution).
He came into our lives as the sweetest, easiest baby you ever did see. Grammy used to joke that we were going to forget him somewhere because he was just that easy. He’d fall asleep anywhere, let anyone hold him, had the cutest smile and quick giggle.
He gives the best hugs. He loves to cuddle. He’ll tell me “you’re the best mom ever” and not just because he wants something.
There were so many moments with this child when I yelled at God and asked Him why He would make the life of a child so hard and why He couldn’t give me the tools to help Bear, since I felt like nothing I did helped. I felt like a failure as his mom in those moments.
Lowest lows. I wish I could say that everything with him was easy and I always had the right answer as his mom(or okay, even that I usually had the right answer…) but that’s not our story.
But now, at 8.
This kid is amazing. He blows me away with all he’s able to do, all he wants to do.
Maybe because everything with him wasn’t always so easy, I appreciate the good more. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I’m glad for the difficult road he had- I’d magically take it all away if I had that ability. But still, I do think it’s made it easier to see the joy in the small things and to really dance in celebration of the big things(even if I do dance dorkily).
This kid. I can’t even begin to explain how much I love him, how proud I am of him.
Happy birthday to my Bear, who is not so little any more, but still gives the best hugs.
LAST WEEK’S #PYHO HIGHLIGHTS
- Love at First Sight from Tshirt & Jeans
- My Choice to Believe from EmmyMom
- The Gave Him a Label from 3rd Time’s the Charm
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