Figuring out what an individual student needed and watching it click. Exciting the class for an upcoming project. Having a student previously deemed a trouble student shine in my classroom.
I used to love teaching. Before my boys were born, I taught for six years. I couldn’t imagine doing anything else. But I also knew that once my babies were born, I wanted to be at home with them.
I’ve never really looked back, especially since I’ve been able to do more and more work from home as my boys have gotten older. Not teaching, but work that I love that also allows me a flexible schedule where I can still be there for almost all my boys’ activities.
But this fall, I’ve started volunteering in my two older boys’ classrooms. And I missed it. I missed teaching for the first time since I left almost 9 year ago.
I think it hit me harder because I was volunteering during math in my third grader’s classroom: a grade I taught and my favorite subject to teach.
Memories of students whom I helped, lessons I taught: I missed it.
But I also know that what I truly miss is the actual teaching. My favorite year of teaching was probably the year that I was out in the “portable classroom” (aka a trailer in the back of the school because they’d run out of space for the kids) teaching fifth grade. That year, no one bothered me unless there was a darn good reason. I was just left to teach.
If I could go back and just teach, just work with the kids, just lesson plan… and I’ll even throw in being accountable for my students passing the end-of-grade standardized tests, I’d go back in a heartbeat.
But teaching is not just about that. There’s so much politics involved. Staff meetings, team meetings, conferences, new standards introduced, extra duties on top of regular school hours. So much paperwork. Not just papers to be graded or report cards to fill out- I have no problem with those. And it’s not IEPs and PEPs- I understand the importance of those. But professional growth plans and documenting every dang thing five different ways according to the requirements of five different people/departments.
I don’t miss any of that.
And truthfully, I don’t want to go back to a schedule that isn’t flexible. To all the extra hours it takes to plan and prepare. It isn’t something that would work for my family right now.
Last Week’s Pour Your Heart Out Highlights
Thanks to everyone who links up for Pour Your Heart Out. I’m highlighting three posts from the previous week and I hope you take the time to check them out, along with visiting some of this week’s linkers.
- Like from The Miss Elaine-ous Life: “I have found myself sitting in front of the screen of my computer wondering what I can post to get the attention of those around me. I am saying right now, this does not feel healthy.”
- Then I Flew to Florida and Left My iPad from Home from Time Out with Becky Kopitzke: “We built memories to last a lifetime. And none of it was distracted by the pull of the outside world.”
- Drip, Drip, Drop from Dancing in the MineFields: “Somedays, the skies in our house go from perfectly sunny with big fluffy Toy Story clouds and a crystal clear blue horizon to a torrential Florida July afternoon rainstorm with no warning. Other days, the rain comes slowly…drip drip drip drip…faster and more intense until finally the dam breaks and out pours the rain.”
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