After getting my children to seven soccer games, one basketball awards ceremony, and one birthday party all in one day, I came home on Saturday night completely done.
Not just tired but done. It had been a good day, but I needed quiet. I needed to not have to talk, to not be around people. That day could have done in just about anyone(and the birthday party is a whole story in itself) but for an introvert, it was overload.
I put on a movie for my boys, figuring they’d fall asleep quickly and I grabbed a book and the quiet was what I needed.
So why would I think anything of it when my oldest comes home from school and just wants to be alone?
He’s still at the age where he tells me just about everything and I’m well aware of the dynamic in his classroom. There isn’t anything going on that’s upsetting him. He’s involved in several sports, is active, has friends, is a smart kid, even a leader in his classroom. He’s a good kid.
So why question why he doesn’t want to play with his brothers or one of the neighbors or even do something with me, instead choosing to do his homework in his room(calling for me if he gets stuck) and then play Minecraft or build something with LEGO or work his way through the Harry Potter book he’s determined to finish before this grading period is up.
Of all people, I should get it.
I need that quiet time alone and get really drained without it.
And my son is doing what makes him happy.
Yet somehow, I think it’s totally acceptable for me to be an introvert but I worry that my son is so much like me.
And it’s not like this is a part of me I’d change if I could. Over the years, I’ve wanted to change various things about myself… the length of my nose, my freakishly short torso, the size of my thighs, and even my height. All superficial things. I never wished I could change how I was deep down, though.
I wouldn’t want to change my son, either.
But yet I still worry that maybe someday he’ll wish that he was more like his outgoing Dad and younger brother. I hope not. I hope he loves who he is: I love who he is.
Have you ever worried about something silly when it comes to your kids? Do you ever worry about ways they are just like you?
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