Less than three weeks until my boys will be back in school. While I’m trying to get organized for back to school and appear calm, I’m really a nervous wreck.
Let’s tick off all my issues, from oldest to youngest child.
My oldest will be in third grade this year. That’s the first year of our state’s testing. And while in previous years, students could have a below passing grade on this test and still be promoted, that’s all changing.
Not that my child isn’t smart. The things he comes up with amazes me. But he’s so meticulous that he tends to freeze if he isn’t one hundred percent sure of an answer and it can take him a long time to get done with his work because he’s not okay with any answer he isn’t positive is correct.
He has an amazing teacher last year and a terrible-awful one the year before. Last year’s teacher helped him so much and I’m nervous that he won’t have someone equally as good this year.
Plus, allow me to have a little freak out over the fact that he only has three more years in elementary school and then he’ll be a middle schooler.
Moving on to my middle child who is entering first grade.
School has not been the easiest for this child. But last year, he had an amazing teacher(whom I begged to loop up to first grade with her class, but apparently I need to give better teacher appreciation gifts because she didn’t). And he kicked his IEP goals square in the ass so much that he’s now considered a regular education student instead of resource(that was a very happy IEP meeting).
But will his teacher be as patient(and loving and firm) with him this year? I already know that he will not have his older brother’s terrible-awful first grade teacher(even the principal said that parents either love that teacher or they hate her guts), but I don’t know who he will have.
I’m really hoping that he continues with all the progress he has been making, but I can’t help but stress over him- this is what happens when your child is kicked out of preschool- it makes you anxious over each school year.
Then there’s the baby of the family. The one who is technically old enough to go to kindergarten but we had made the decision to do kindergarten redshirting. That wasn’t a decision that we came to lightly and I still think it’s the best thing for him and might even help him… and when I work with him on his fine motor skills, I thank the Lord we decided to wait.
But there’s still that little doubt as his friends head off to kindergarten(all going to different schools than the one he’d be at, at least). What if we should have sent him this year?
Plus, do you know the biggest benefit of kindergarten over kinder-prep? Kindergarten is free, y’all. *sigh*
Realistically, I know that once my boys are back in the swing of things at school, this anxiety will go away and I’ll find that most(let’s hope for all) of my fears are unfounded. And if they aren’t, I’m well-practiced in the role of mama bear, so I know we can get things resolved.
But that doesn’t stop me from worrying right now.
Do you have any anxiety about your kids heading back to school this year?
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