I try to sleep and I can’t.
I should be able to because it’s been a long day.
It’s always a long day.
Between work and the kids and all the daily stuff that needs to be done, I should be ready to fall right asleep at the end of the day.
Even the days that are full of fun activities are still long and exhausting.
But I can’t sleep.
My mind races with thoughts of the next day’s to-do list, with worries of things that might happen, things that most likely will never happen, regrets, and most recently some of the things that even I can’t say.
The thoughts are too loud for sleep to come.
So I read until my eyes are too tired to read another line.
Or watch tv until the clock reads an hour well past when I should be sleeping.
And then I try to fall asleep again.
But everything comes rushing back and I can’t get my mind to quiet.
The more I try, the more my heart will start to race.
So I turn the tv back on to some mindless show and close my eyes, focusing on the show’s dialogue to block out all my thoughts, and hope that if I keep my eyes closed long enough, I’ll eventually drift off to sleep.
And I do.
But as soon as something wakes me in the morning, I can’t fall back asleep, even if the clock tells me that there’s time. Because there isn’t enough time to go through my ritual again to get back to sleep.
So I get up and start my day, keeping busy to keep stressful thoughts away.
And then it’s nighttime and it starts all over again.
Do you ever have trouble falling asleep? What helps you to quiet your mind and be able to sleep?
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