I had the hardest time leaving my firstborn.
And I mean for the amount of time it took to go to the grocery store alone.
I eventually got better at the separation, learning it was good for them and for me to have time apart.
At one point, I even felt like woo-hoo, mama’s headed out of town and I have zero guilt.
Though my 6 year-old Bear now absolutely hates for me to be out of town and he doesn’t deal well with it, so that makes trips a little harder.
Yet, I go out of town anyway. It’s rare that it’s just a fun girls’ weekend: it’s usually for a blog conference or event… which, while fun, can still be seen as a working event. A-hem.
And next week, I’ll be gone to TWIN Camp: fly out Tuesday after school drop-off, back Thursday night. A quick trip, really.
When Hubs and I were looking at what was going on for those days, it was just school… no big events, all things he could handle.
But about the second after I confirmed I was going to go and my plane ticket was booked for me, a little note came home in my Bear’s folder.
The kindergarten concert would be that Tuesday night.
I’ve heard the songs: Bear has been singing them for me for the past few months.
I knew this was coming.
Yet, some how, I thought that it would be this week, not next.
Because who wants to add the craziness of a nighttime event like that to the last week of school, right? Wrong.
There isn’t a late flight I could take and still attend his concert.
I’ve missed small things in my kids’ lives. Soccer games here and there.
But nothing big.
Mama is always there for the big things.
This concert is a big thing.
The only way that I can go is if I don’t go to TWIN.
But, I gave my word and said I’d go: to me, there’s a level of professionalism involved with events like this- it’s not just a girls’ night out that I’d be bailing out on.
So, I’m going to go.
And miss the concert.
Hubs will get video for me.
And I’ll try not to cry too hard that night, knowing what I’m missing.
Have you missed out on any big moments for your kids? How do you deal with the guilt?
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