I wonder if they know that when I say “Shhh, Mommy is working,” that I really mean it.
That though I’m sitting on the family room floor in my pajamas with the laptop on my lap, I’m not ignoring them to play games online.
They play games on the laptop… whenever they actually get a chance to get on it, which is usually only when I’m not home or if I happen to get up for a minute and they snatch it up.
So, do they think I’m playing games instead of playing with them?
I wonder if they know that I’m not playing Angry Birds on my phone while they play on the playground. That I’d much rather be pushing them on the swings or helping them catch bugs(okay, maybe not bugs- ew). But, I’m answering a work email that needs attention right now.
I wonder if they know that I’m really not hiding in the closet from them because they are making me crazy but because I’m on a conference call where the background noise of three little boys isn’t appropriate.
I wonder if they know that I do it for them.
That though I do enjoy my work, I only do it to help support our family, to be able to get them the things they need and even some of what they want.
I wonder if they know that though they often have to wait until I’m done with work to play with them, they are my priority.
I don’t have to wonder if they know that Daddy works. They see Daddy go off to work almost every day and they know where Daddy’s office is.
But I wonder if they know that Mommy works.
Being a work at home mom is where I’ve found my rhythm.
I can tell them “Mommy is working” or try to explain what I’m doing, but I wonder if they really understand.
I don’t say “one more minute” because I don’t want to spend time with them, but because I’m working.
I wonder if they know how hard I try to keep a balance between the work-at-home part and the mom part.
Whether you are a stay-at-home mom, a work-at-home mom, or a work-outside-the-home mom, how do you keep a balance between what you have to do and what you’d like to do?
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